just an observation..

i ate my breakfast at my kitchen table and then at about 8:50 am, i got a call on my phone from the driver of my medical transportation van saying that he was downstairs waiting for me because he had another client who he had to take to a doctor's appointment who also lived in this apartment. my pick up time wasn't until 9:15 am, so he was early and i wasn't ready, so i said to him, "well, i'm eating." then he said, "so you'll be down here then?" and i said, "okay." then not even a minute after hanging up the phone, i hear a knock at my door and it's the driver who called me. kelly (another resident of this apartment, who is in a wheelchair was waiting for the elevator because my apartment is right by the elevator) said to me, "C'MON STACY. I CAN'T BE LATE FOR MY APPOINTMENT." then my automatic door shut a second later to shut her up. on the way to take kelly to her appointment, then me to the courage center afterwards, kelly asked me on the van parked in her wheelchair (while i was sitting in the passenger seat of the van because i decided to just use my walker today), "stacy, what happened to your wheelchair? why aren't you using that anymore?" then i said, "because i don't feel like it and i don't need it but the only reason why i'm using a walker today is because i need something to help me haul all my swimming stuff along for pool therapy." then she said, "oh." then i said, "on tuesday i didn't use anything and i didn't fall or even feel like i was going to fall but the therapist got all anal with me and said that he wanted me to sign a form for liability before i walked without anything assisting me there again." i'm not sure if she feels this feeling of being left out or like she's not strong or good enough? because now that i'm starting to walk with a walker and/or nothing at all and i'm eventually getting outta my wheelchair, i don't know if she's starting to feel like she's the only girl in a wheelchair left in this apartment? i'm not sure if she's even thinking about that though or that she's not strong enough? i don't know but it was just the tone of voice that she used when she asked me what happened to my wheelchair that was different.